Everything

the way you say my name
the way you walk away
say hello but please don't go

keep breathing in and out
don't leave me here with all this doubt
please stay with me tonight

I need you here tonight
I need to know that you're alright
don't stray too far away
I can't see you when you're so far away

I miss everything
I miss everything about everything you are
I can't sleep at night sometimes
but at least I know that you're alright

I miss everything
I miss everything about everything you were
when I have sleepless nights I just stare out into the night sky
but I can't see you when you're so far away

something is so wrong
it's so empty in there
it's too quiet in here
it's too quiet without you my dear

I didn't notice
didn't notice how much of me you had
my heart is missing you
forever will be

I need you here tonight
I know that you're alright
but you're so far away
and it just doesn't feel right

I miss everything
I miss everything about everything you are
I can't sleep at night sometimes
but at least I know that you're alright

I miss everything
I miss everything about everything you were
when I have sleepless nights I just stare out into the night sky
but I can't see you when you're so far away 

be safe
be okay
stay sweet
stay so sincere

I'll keep you here
forever in my heart
but I miss everything
I miss everything about everything you were

Ginger

I knew the day would come where I would have to let you go, to be in a better place. I just didn't expect to have to let you go so soon and suddenly. You weren't just a guinea pig, and I know that to some people it's weird and stupid, or whatever other thoughts run through their minds, but I don't see it that way. When I was all alone and everyone left me and forgot about me, you sat with me all day, and never left my side. You made me feel happy when it seemed like all I could be was sad. You had no expectations except lettuce. You loved and trusted me with only the purest kind there is. I rescued you and in a way you rescued me too. I remember the day I brought you home, April 30th 2010. I don't know how I would have gotten through all those months after my surgery and rehab without your little face to greet me and comfort me everyday. I love all of my guinea pigs so much I can't explain it, but me and you always had a special bond that I've never had with any animal and I don't think I ever will again. I miss you every day and every night. You will always be a thought in the back of my mind. I will love you forever and ever, never forgoten and always missed. You have a friend up there, wherever you may be, keep Amber company and get along. My baby Ginger piggie, may your wonderfull sweet little soul rest in peace♥

Drown

walking out the door
hoping you had more
all you have inside
is a fire behing your eyes
burns both day and night
screams and shouts
that flame will never burn out
pounding from within
out of the  head
never wanted to let you in
speak thoughts out loud
hear whispers with no sound
let the rain fall
don't let me down
save me as I drown
memories rush into your mind
yeah they get me all the time
did you hear me when I said it out loud
can you see me when I don't make a sound
would you ever let me drown
please don't let me drown

Amber

This is my precious 12 year old pittbull/lab mix, Amber. She has spent the last 13 years of my life with me and my family. Being an old dog, she;s definitely slowed down the past few years, especially this past year. The past day or so she has no been doing well at all. She lay down on the floor and she's hardly move since. She won't eat. She won't drink. She won't stand by herself. She just wont move. She breathes, and it takes all the energy she has left to just do that. It's not that she doesn't want to do all those things though, I know, she tries so hard to drink and it she just can't seem to do it on her own. It just kills me to see her like this. My Amber dog that is always so brave and powerful. The first one to greet you at the door. I have been crying all day long at the thought, the fact that I'm going to lose her. I just can't get over it. I don't know what life is like without her. I don't want her to suffer, or be in pain, or anything. I want her to be peaceful. I want to remember her as the happiest thing in my life. The best part of my day. The high light of my week, The reason I love walking through the doors. Hearing her so excited to see me, like she hasn't seen me in years, prancing around the living room with her and hugging her so tight she squirms out of my arms. I already miss that so much. I can't do much to help her. I just sit on the floor and lay with her, petting her and hugging her. Wiping the druel off her face and giving her water with a rag so it can drip down her throat. All I can do is what she has always done for me when I was sick, just be there at her side. She always just knew when something was wrong, she just sat there with her head on me, as long as I needed her for. She has been loyal to me all these years and it's my turn to return her the favor. All I can do is pray that when it is her time to go, that she goes peacfully and pain free. I know it's hard for some people to understand, because it's "just a dog" but it is so much more than that. She is my family. She is apart of me. I love her more than I can even describe and she means the absolute world to me. I'll stick with her till the end, but I'll sleep better knowing that I've given her the best dog days she could have. Nothing but love and affection and care. That's all a dog could ever ask for, that and, lots of milk bones. She's got it all. She willl always hold a special place in my heart that no dog will ever be able to fill. I love you so so so so much Amber, I will miss you when it's time. Gone but never, ever forgotten.

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Ahhh! Taylor Swift is at it yet again! I'm so super excited! Her new album, RED will be out October 22, 2012! I have been listening to her new single, We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together, non stop since it came out! She never ever dissapoints me! Here's the lyrics and the link to hear the song! Fearless Fan Forever!

"We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together"

I remember when we broke up the first time
Saying, "This is it, I've had enough," 'cause like
We hadn't seen each other in a month
When you said you needed space. (What?)
Then you come around again and say
"Baby, I miss you and I swear I'm gonna change, trust me."
Remember how that lasted for a day?
I say, "I hate you," we break up, you call me, "I love you."

Oooh we called it off again last night
But oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Like, ever...

I'm really gonna miss you picking fights
And me, falling for it screaming that I'm right
And you, would hide away and find your peace of mind
With some indie record that's much cooler than mine

Oooh, you called me up again tonight
But oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me (talk to me)
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Oooh oooh oooh oooh

I used to think that we were forever ever
And I used to say never say never
Huh, so he calls me up and he's like, "I still love you"
And I'm like, "I just, I mean this is exhausting, you know, like,
We are never getting back together. Like, ever"

No!

We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

We are not getting back together,
We oh, not getting back together

You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me (talk to me)
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gcMn_Eu-XTE&feature=share

Secrets

lurking in the shadows
with their silent screams
waiting behind the scenes
innocence it seems

kept for so long
such distance put between
the space and the time
it's all put on the line

secrets are tearing up my heart
secrets are pulling me apart
your words pass through me
how can I react

secrets are everywhere
too many to be aware
the chaos that they leave
is more than it ever seemed

my mind must speak aloud
silent is the sound
the secrets I have found
hiding in your mouth

better lost than found
a soul that can't stay ground
I cannot sleep at all
for your secrets have been found

Endlessly

lost in a sea of my frustration
caught in a fog of falling faith
give me someone to hold on to
give me something to let go of
endlessly
endlessly
for screams and tears I've cried
all the feelings I had to hide
seven hundred and thirty days I tried
endlessly
endlessly
I fought so hard
lost so many times
never imagined and ending like this
all the moments were so worth it
endlessly
endlessly
you're so easy to miss
now that there is nothing more to this
I have been torn apart
and rebirthed from it
endlessly
endlessly