This is my precious 12 year old pittbull/lab mix, Amber. She has spent the last 13 years of my life with me and my family. Being an old dog, she;s definitely slowed down the past few years, especially this past year. The past day or so she has no been doing well at all. She lay down on the floor and she's hardly move since. She won't eat. She won't drink. She won't stand by herself. She just wont move. She breathes, and it takes all the energy she has left to just do that. It's not that she doesn't want to do all those things though, I know, she tries so hard to drink and it she just can't seem to do it on her own. It just kills me to see her like this. My Amber dog that is always so brave and powerful. The first one to greet you at the door. I have been crying all day long at the thought, the fact that I'm going to lose her. I just can't get over it. I don't know what life is like without her. I don't want her to suffer, or be in pain, or anything. I want her to be peaceful. I want to remember her as the happiest thing in my life. The best part of my day. The high light of my week, The reason I love walking through the doors. Hearing her so excited to see me, like she hasn't seen me in years, prancing around the living room with her and hugging her so tight she squirms out of my arms. I already miss that so much. I can't do much to help her. I just sit on the floor and lay with her, petting her and hugging her. Wiping the druel off her face and giving her water with a rag so it can drip down her throat. All I can do is what she has always done for me when I was sick, just be there at her side. She always just knew when something was wrong, she just sat there with her head on me, as long as I needed her for. She has been loyal to me all these years and it's my turn to return her the favor. All I can do is pray that when it is her time to go, that she goes peacfully and pain free. I know it's hard for some people to understand, because it's "just a dog" but it is so much more than that. She is my family. She is apart of me. I love her more than I can even describe and she means the absolute world to me. I'll stick with her till the end, but I'll sleep better knowing that I've given her the best dog days she could have. Nothing but love and affection and care. That's all a dog could ever ask for, that and, lots of milk bones. She's got it all. She willl always hold a special place in my heart that no dog will ever be able to fill. I love you so so so so much Amber, I will miss you when it's time. Gone but never, ever forgotten. 
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Amber
This is my precious 12 year old pittbull/lab mix, Amber. She has spent the last 13 years of my life with me and my family. Being an old dog, she;s definitely slowed down the past few years, especially this past year. The past day or so she has no been doing well at all. She lay down on the floor and she's hardly move since. She won't eat. She won't drink. She won't stand by herself. She just wont move. She breathes, and it takes all the energy she has left to just do that. It's not that she doesn't want to do all those things though, I know, she tries so hard to drink and it she just can't seem to do it on her own. It just kills me to see her like this. My Amber dog that is always so brave and powerful. The first one to greet you at the door. I have been crying all day long at the thought, the fact that I'm going to lose her. I just can't get over it. I don't know what life is like without her. I don't want her to suffer, or be in pain, or anything. I want her to be peaceful. I want to remember her as the happiest thing in my life. The best part of my day. The high light of my week, The reason I love walking through the doors. Hearing her so excited to see me, like she hasn't seen me in years, prancing around the living room with her and hugging her so tight she squirms out of my arms. I already miss that so much. I can't do much to help her. I just sit on the floor and lay with her, petting her and hugging her. Wiping the druel off her face and giving her water with a rag so it can drip down her throat. All I can do is what she has always done for me when I was sick, just be there at her side. She always just knew when something was wrong, she just sat there with her head on me, as long as I needed her for. She has been loyal to me all these years and it's my turn to return her the favor. All I can do is pray that when it is her time to go, that she goes peacfully and pain free. I know it's hard for some people to understand, because it's "just a dog" but it is so much more than that. She is my family. She is apart of me. I love her more than I can even describe and she means the absolute world to me. I'll stick with her till the end, but I'll sleep better knowing that I've given her the best dog days she could have. Nothing but love and affection and care. That's all a dog could ever ask for, that and, lots of milk bones. She's got it all. She willl always hold a special place in my heart that no dog will ever be able to fill. I love you so so so so much Amber, I will miss you when it's time. Gone but never, ever forgotten. 
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